Life has changed for us all since the start of this pandemic and dispite a few things opening up things haven't gotten any better and in some ways it's worst. For me the days have become monotonously aggressive and boring waiting for the world to change. So I have been taking steps to change my own world.
I have been waking up at 5am most mornings. I drink some beet kvass to maintain my blood pressure while I play Elder Scrolls online and escape into a different world for a little while. By the time the sun comes up my husband and go hiking and or fishing. I haven't been that instrested in social media because honestly it just hasn't been realistically fitting into my current life style. When I get dressed for a photo shoot I always build it around a date with my husband or outing with my family so that it's more than just a photo for me.
Lately I have moved my efforts into my health to increase my strength and stamina so that I am prepared for the opening of the state and national parks. I want to be strong and have what it takes for a long camping trip with my family. Hiking has increased my endurance and overall has made me happier and more optimistic about the future.
I've discovered that fishing calms my anxiety and in many ways I have found it to be very much like meditation. That's both ironic and kinda funny because I was taught how to fish by my parents who are avid fishermen from a very young age and I absolutely hated it most of my life. My husband and I got so bored of sitting around the house just eating and sleeping in front of the TV that I suggested we go buy fishing licenses and gear. It's been really nice and therapeutic to see the sunrise most mornings and just sitting and watching the water ripple while the wind blows around the smell of the earth and water.
I've been so mellow and feeling so good that I finally started to record videos again. If you were wondering why I seldom post to my YouTube the secret is simply that I'm camera shy and wildly obsessive yall ! I also wasn't sure which direction I wanted to take my channel in. All I really knew is I wanted to do something to help people but I have a tendency to over think the process and then I get nervous and began to feel insecure about my abilities. All the videos I've done in the past had to have a very specific recipe of events to be executed. No one could be home, I had to already be dressed for something else because I really hate getting dressed just to get in front of a camera. My entire setup had to be ready a day ahead and nothing bad could happen or it would throw off my whole mood and I would have no motivation to move forward. There is no such thing as perfect anything or the right time. The time to do anything important to you is now no matter what is going on around you.
The state of our world is uncertain but dispite the challenges I'm greatful for how I'm growing forward and moving through personal obstacles that have always lead me to self sabotage. Though all of this the greatest lesson I have learned is that even if the world stops turning as long as there is life in my body the beat goes on and so will I because I have to.
I have been waking up at 5am most mornings. I drink some beet kvass to maintain my blood pressure while I play Elder Scrolls online and escape into a different world for a little while. By the time the sun comes up my husband and go hiking and or fishing. I haven't been that instrested in social media because honestly it just hasn't been realistically fitting into my current life style. When I get dressed for a photo shoot I always build it around a date with my husband or outing with my family so that it's more than just a photo for me.
Lately I have moved my efforts into my health to increase my strength and stamina so that I am prepared for the opening of the state and national parks. I want to be strong and have what it takes for a long camping trip with my family. Hiking has increased my endurance and overall has made me happier and more optimistic about the future.
I've discovered that fishing calms my anxiety and in many ways I have found it to be very much like meditation. That's both ironic and kinda funny because I was taught how to fish by my parents who are avid fishermen from a very young age and I absolutely hated it most of my life. My husband and I got so bored of sitting around the house just eating and sleeping in front of the TV that I suggested we go buy fishing licenses and gear. It's been really nice and therapeutic to see the sunrise most mornings and just sitting and watching the water ripple while the wind blows around the smell of the earth and water.
I've been so mellow and feeling so good that I finally started to record videos again. If you were wondering why I seldom post to my YouTube the secret is simply that I'm camera shy and wildly obsessive yall ! I also wasn't sure which direction I wanted to take my channel in. All I really knew is I wanted to do something to help people but I have a tendency to over think the process and then I get nervous and began to feel insecure about my abilities. All the videos I've done in the past had to have a very specific recipe of events to be executed. No one could be home, I had to already be dressed for something else because I really hate getting dressed just to get in front of a camera. My entire setup had to be ready a day ahead and nothing bad could happen or it would throw off my whole mood and I would have no motivation to move forward. There is no such thing as perfect anything or the right time. The time to do anything important to you is now no matter what is going on around you.
The state of our world is uncertain but dispite the challenges I'm greatful for how I'm growing forward and moving through personal obstacles that have always lead me to self sabotage. Though all of this the greatest lesson I have learned is that even if the world stops turning as long as there is life in my body the beat goes on and so will I because I have to.
